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Mizu’s Sushi Buffet here I cooooome! <3

Oh my,oh my Taylor.

About to get ready ina little bit to grab a bite to eat w/Dianne once she comes over.Then off to visit my SillyBillyGoose(: And finally,work til 2AM. I should be taking a nap if anything blah oh well.

Well anywho, the weekend was pretty good Friday- Saw Michael Jackson’s Movie: “This is it” w/Sister,Cousin and BF.Then got stuff w/Sushi and Crazy Sushi&to top off the night,Tapioca Express whoot! Saturday-Norcal Assembly w/YFC in Citrus Heights,ended the night off with Leatherby’s yum! And now Sunday-Resting up for school tomorrow. Btw,Happy early Birthday Camille! We’ll hang out forsure since I didnt make it yesterday to your party(=

I need to recover asap thouugh’ ugh. =(

GoodGoodGoodGood DAAAAY!(= Just thought I’d share.Lol

And its finally the weekeeend!Oh man. I swear this week felt like forever to end. Now I get to sleep in tomorrow whoot! Although I am excited for next week cos Camp is right around the corner,that calls for another WHOOT! :D First time Server; pretty exciting yes? Now its time to make some fun plans for the weekend so it’ll be an enjoyable one hehe. Outs!

In about 5 hours I will be leaving to Las Vegas.Havent gotten any sleep!Super super SUPER excited.Havent been there since 07 for New Years but I didnt get to do much since I was only there for like 2 days.But this time Ima be with my FamBam from LA&some heads I know down there from LV.Going to see a lot of faces I havent seen in yeeaars.Ohp time to camerawhore my camera.Haha.Totally not excited for the 8 hour car ride there,but it’ll be totally worth it once I get there.On Sat its going to be my Tita Jean’s Birthday so time to celebrate!One of the main reasons why were heading there in the first place.But of course Ima have my Entourage/Bodyguards w/me.Lol aka my Kuyas&Cousins.Since the adults are going to be doing theire own thing.I get to go around the Strip/City just with the Cousins so it should be a blaaast.Were going to leave LV like on Sunday or Monday cos were heading back to my Fam’s crib in LA.Just chill there for the week then head down to SanDiego.It’ll be my first time going so it should be pretty cool.Since there are many many cuties down there I heard.LOL Ashley!Ohp hope I dont end up bring one back home.Haha,nah jaaykaay.Well we see how the next week goes.Fun fun fun times are bouta begin.

Right now Im such ina dfjdjfdkfndk mood.I dont even know how to describe how I feel.So much is on my mind to the point where Im not functioning.Everyone in the house is asleep except for me.Keep thinking about the past&present.All the times I made mistakes that I wished I couldve fixed.I guess you can say its regretting&guilt.Thinking about the people I once had in my life,now things changed and never can go back.Just cos we’ll always remember what happened between us.Its disappointing because once youve grown a strong connection w/someone,then all of a sudden its gone,you feel like something is missing.And youre going to want it back.Maybe over time it will,but no guarantees.People come in&out of your life all the time.Its a really sad thing.But the ones that were really meant to be in your life are the ones who dont leave in the first place.The only people you need in your life are the ones that know forsure they need you in theirs.It just sucks when you put so much effort into someone or something,then dont get the same treatment back.I admit,when someone put so much effort into me,I wouldnt always put in my 100%.And now when I look back at it,I just want to slap myself for being so stupid&careless.Like what was I thinking?You dont realize what you got til its gone,thats a no doubt.Never take anything for granted,cos you never know one day they wont be there.Biggest leason I’ve learned.One of the worst things Ive ever done.Such a big no no.Little by little Im learning from life experiences Ive been going through.Ive applied all of them daily so I dont make the same mistakes over and over again.I know struggles are hard to handle while youre dealing with them,but afterwards it helps shape you to the person you grow up to be.Thats why I try to be as optimistic as possible when things start to fall apart.Cos I know eventually things get better.Have faith in God&he’ll help you through it.Thats why he’s my Bestfriend,&turn to him for anything.Really does help.I always have to remember,cherish what I have now because things can change in just a blink of an eye.Enjoy it before its too late.Cos by then you cant do anything about it.

-ShaneMarie