Hi Im ShaneMarieCueto(=

Right now Im such ina dfjdjfdkfndk mood.I dont even know how to describe how I feel.So much is on my mind to the point where Im not functioning.Everyone in the house is asleep except for me.Keep thinking about the past&present.All the times I made mistakes that I wished I couldve fixed.I guess you can say its regretting&guilt.Thinking about the people I once had in my life,now things changed and never can go back.Just cos we’ll always remember what happened between us.Its disappointing because once youve grown a strong connection w/someone,then all of a sudden its gone,you feel like something is missing.And youre going to want it back.Maybe over time it will,but no guarantees.People come in&out of your life all the time.Its a really sad thing.But the ones that were really meant to be in your life are the ones who dont leave in the first place.The only people you need in your life are the ones that know forsure they need you in theirs.It just sucks when you put so much effort into someone or something,then dont get the same treatment back.I admit,when someone put so much effort into me,I wouldnt always put in my 100%.And now when I look back at it,I just want to slap myself for being so stupid&careless.Like what was I thinking?You dont realize what you got til its gone,thats a no doubt.Never take anything for granted,cos you never know one day they wont be there.Biggest leason I’ve learned.One of the worst things Ive ever done.Such a big no no.Little by little Im learning from life experiences Ive been going through.Ive applied all of them daily so I dont make the same mistakes over and over again.I know struggles are hard to handle while youre dealing with them,but afterwards it helps shape you to the person you grow up to be.Thats why I try to be as optimistic as possible when things start to fall apart.Cos I know eventually things get better.Have faith in God&he’ll help you through it.Thats why he’s my Bestfriend,&turn to him for anything.Really does help.I always have to remember,cherish what I have now because things can change in just a blink of an eye.Enjoy it before its too late.Cos by then you cant do anything about it.

-ShaneMarie